I Need Help!
I have been dealing with a great deal of grief since my Partner left me 2 weeks before Thanksgiving. Needless to say, the holidays were extremely tough but somehow I survived. I Woke up this morning after first waking up at 3am to an incredible dream that I had. I am not much of a dreamer, so when I dream I guess things are really churning in me! anyways, this dream was about me begging my ex to come back to me. It was nothing short of embarrassing! I was throwing myself at his feet, crying begging and he didn't want anything to do with me! REJECTION! ouch. I miss him! I am in counselling, and joined a CoDa group (co-dependence anonymous) but healing has been so slow! It has been 2 months since I have last seen him and 3weeks since I last spoke with him. I so love him! everything in me wants to call, write or make some kins of connection. I immediately wanted to start setting up profiles on the websites, but my brother and counselor recommend that I not date for quite a while. I feel like I am spinning in this place of painful emotions constantly thinking of what he is doing, where he is and WHO is he with. I try focusing on my kids but how much can you focus when you focus on them a lot already! I thought Brian was my love for life! never thinking that there might ever be another.
Hurting horribly,
Mark

Hi Mark,

I'm so sorry you're feeling so low. How did it all end? Did he say "never speak to me again" or "I never want to hear from you again"?
It sounds to me like you are incomplete with the whole thing and have some things you still need to say. Is it possible for you to have a conversation with him to just get these things out into the open? If that was done, then there might be a few more unsaid feelings in there that need to come out into the open.

Now is a perfect time to make sure friends and family are all around you. Definitely too early to get back into the game, but a perfect time to wipe off the slate and start fresh.We're all here to help you out, so keep talking and don't give up!

Cheers and Hugs,

Jay

Sorry to hear about your pain, Mark. I hope that it gets easier with passage of time. I would suggest that maybe turn to your group of friends.... go for coffees, bar and such.... it may help you to know that others have not left you as Brian did.


Just a thought.