I guess you have to start somewhere. I've been stalking this site for awhile now, reading the stories, feeling not so alone now. My name is Mark, I'm from southern Pa. Actually right on the Pa/Md line. I am the father of three. A daughter, 24, who is married and soon to have our third grandchild, and two sons, 18 and 6. I came out to my wife about six months ago. The kids don't know and I am still living at home for now. ALthough I have known I am gay since a teenager, I did what so many of us did. The marrage, trying to fit in, having kids, always feeling that empty space in our lives. I do have a man in my life who waits patiently until my life is in order, and our day will come when we can share our lives together. Some days I want to scream to the world that I'm gay. Some days I want to crawl under a rock and hide. I just needed to take a deep breath and take this first step. I usually don't respond in groups so this is all new to me, but it seems I've found you all have a simular story and I find comfort in that. I hope to find insight here and to share my story with others, maybe help someone else to see they are not alone. Maybe help me with my own choices. This is a great sight, I look foreward to participating in it and watching it grow.

Welcome aboard Mark! Thanks for coming out to play. This is a great place for support and friendship.

Cheers,

Jay

Mark, thanks for giving up your life as a GF stalker and stepping into the light!

You've already seen how similar your current story and plight sound to many of us here. Though we come from all sorts of backgrounds, many of us too came out of "straight" marriages. That's what we were expected to do, so we did the best we could.

That's all anyone can ask of you now. Do your best to make the best decisions you can. You have a whole group of fellow travelers here ready to offer arms (or sometimes boots ) of encouragement.

Fact is, it's cold and damp and uncomfortable under that rock. And even for the sake of the kids, you can find ways of giving them a whole, healthy, happier father by taking good care of your soul now that you are coming to grips with the depths of it.

Damn, that sounded too all-knowing and pretentious. I'm sorry. I am just glad that you don't feel alone anymore. That's why I created this group in the first place. No one should have to go through this alone.

Thanks and warm welcomes,
David